The space between the tears we cry - the laughter keeps up coming back for more...

This happens to be one of my favorite pictures of my birthday week so far. I guess I'm just in awe that I'm turning 21, graduating college in May, and will be going to grad school in August. That's a year. I have to grow the rest of the way up. Why is it I was so charged to grow up before? Now I just want to stay home. I just didn't realize life was moving this fast, not at all. Here I am in Australia, thinking about this - it's just crazy. Anyway, on to what everyone reads this for: Australia.

It's Wednesday, so tonight Kait, Alexis & I are heading to the Ranch to make the Marist girls hate their lives. We're sweet like that. We decided they can hate us, but we're going to kill them with kindness - that's what people like that hate. We're such bitches, but we already knew that!

Tomorrow night is Thursday, which means UBar. At midnight it's officially my birthday, so I'm super stoked. I can't believe I turn 21. Seriously. Wow. I'm getting old.

Friday is still open to interpretation. We're pretty sure we're headed into Scruffy's to start off the night, probably around 8 or so. Then we're unsure as to what's next. It's between heading to Ivy or finding somewhere else to go. Alas and alack, it'll be taken care of eventually.

Saturday & Sunday are "DO WORK SON" days, or shits going to hit the fan. For real.


I keep finding myself alone in my room - all by my doing. I just find my door closed, sitting in here. It's so stupid, I don't really get why I do it. I like knowing that I can sit here in semi-silence and no one will say anything, but then I miss out on the on-goings of the hall. I'm a loser. Never before have I felt this uncomfortable in social situations. I feel like the little smelly kid in kindergarden who can't tie their shoes. It's all so awkward. I think it's mostly because I miss my stupid friends. I love them.

Seriously, Alicia and Becky sent me that bear from Build-A-Bear. Her name is Sydney and she's wearing this really trashy outfit. I love it. She has a passport (pawsport <3) style="font-style: italic;">I miss you all - don't forget that. No one will ever replace my Jays kids - you've got that for life. It's so ridiculous and childish how sad I am about missing my mom and grandparents. I feel like a brat, but I'd do anything for a hug. I haven't had a hug in a while....

Love, love, lOve, and loooooove.

Word of the day: bubbla
meaning: water fountain.

I just can't turn and walk away...

"I thought about calling you when I got off the plane
Every time I see this city through the clouds I get that way
Call me crazy for missing you like this but I do
By now I figured you had all your numbers changed
It's been at least a year since I called you up to say
We need to talk I got this job and I think I'm going to take it

'Cause I been waiting all my life
For a break like this
It's my chance of a lifetime I just know it is
I gotta go find these dreams
Was the last thing that I said
And then I did

I can see clear to the mountains as we head up our old street
I remember how we'd call in sick on days like these
And turn the music up roll the windows down and just drive
You talked me outta givin' up on myself so many times
Convinced me to get in while I could regrets hang heavy on the mind
you never doubted me you kept pushing me

Saying you've been waiting all your life for a break like this
It's your chance of a lifetime you just know it is
You gotta go find those dreams
Was the last thing that you said
And then I did

But you were wrong
Love was what I wanted all along
And now you're gone

I thought about calling you when I got off the plane
Every time I see this city through the clouds I get that way

But you were wrong
Love was what I wanted all along"



I'm sick. I miss everyone. I want to have training shifts. I want to yell at dumb people. I want to decorate my dorm room (in Etown). I want to go to Bube's or to Rockwell's for my 21st. I want my momma to take me to Conner's for my first "legal" drink. I want to walk across campus and harass becky and nikki. I want to go out to Flavors on Trivia night. I want class with only 20 other people. I want to boil out the fryers and clean the char grill. I want to cuddle and laugh with mike. I want to know my mommie can come and see me when she has a spare hour. I want to see my MOH and pounce on her - cause I can. I just want to get better.

But hell, I'm in Australia - guess I'll make the best of it. Spring Break to the GBR and Cairns in less then a month <33


And new, starting now. Australian word of the day:
Stroppy: meaning cranky, grumpy.

Waiting here with hopes the phone might ring...

So, I really wanted to buy a journal to keep myself in tune with writing an to be able to regurgitate information at will to anyone that asked - I decided this was probably MUCH easier. I can keep everyone abreast all my info and post pictures and not fill everyone's inbox.

Overall:
I'm enjoying myself. I won't lie, the thrill of being in a different country across the world hasn't lost it's appeal - just the people have. Kait, Alexis and myself tend to have more fun together then we do with the Aussies. Especially because we live on a floor with kids. I'm talking barely legal, almost USA jailbait. Certifiable freshers, like, WOO! I'm going to be 19 soon! Oh, goody. 19 huh? The worst part is they're all ABOUT drinking until they don't recall their night. It's obnoxious...

A more intimate "get to know you" with the people on my floor and in Aussie land:
So, on my floor there are four guys that we talk to, the RA and another American. Everyone else is Asian and doesn't talk to us. The guys are Jeremy, Damo, Brad and Kane. The RA is Jen and Karrah from F&M (not kidding) lives across from Kait. Jeremy is 22 and a chiropractic major. He's also cocky 95% of the time and thinks he's the best thing since sliced freakin' bread. We thought he was a nice guy when we first met him...then he threw up all over Kait & Alexis and acted like it was all good. Not all good, not one bit. Damo lives next door to me (408) and is usually nice. He's one of those followers - he'll do anything if you egg him on a bit, which is when he gets !*(@&$%@)% obnoxious. Nice overall though. Brad is another cocky kid. He's completely adorable and plays footy like a king - he's absolutely fabulous, just ask him. Kane lives across from Brad and is really quiet, he's the observer, but is really nice to me - not so much Kait & Alexis though. Jen is our RA and doesn't say much of anything. Her boyfriend lives in her room (even though visitors overnight are NOT allowed, he never leaves). Karrah is from F&M and is really nice - I don't know much about her though...

Otherwise, we're here with a lot of Cali kids and a bunch of Marist sluts. Seriously, those Marist girls change their man more then they change their underwear. It's like, oh well gooooood. *Sigh* Americans have such a bad rap here...no wonder. Two of the Marist girls - Brianne & Agnes - they're really nice. Poor girls, stuck with such a bunch of social sluts.


Really, that's just my introduction...everyone's already heard all the recent stories, so there's no point going into anymore of them. Good point: my birthday is in 6 days. That'll be exciting.....I just wish my momma, mike and the jays kids were here to celebrate with me.